Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Evaluative Conclusion...

It's an interesting thing. When coming to college, registration is a part of the process. We go in and look up classes that either we take an interest to, or that are required to take (eventually at least) to graduate. Lucky for me, Writing 150 fit under both those categories....But that's for talking about...later.
When we sign up for these classes, all we get really is a one sentence description - one line (like a thesis?) that is supposed to adequately summarize up the entire semester.

Yet I've found out that what I've got out of these classes is so much more than what I was expecting from the course description!

For example, take my theatre class! Was I expecting to write a play, produce a play, have a great many laughs, learn about the gospel, gain life knowledge about myself and others, make valuable friends, have the chance to see incredible shows and all in all learn more than I ever expected to? No I was not...But I did...And I'm so grateful I had such an incredible experience!
And take my American Heritage class! ...I just wrote an entire blog about it, so I'll save you from the repetition. :)
And finally take WRITING 150. I never expected to learn so much about effectively communicating! (Rhetoric...Ethos, Pathos, Logos! Words that were once foreign to me...are now concepts I hold dear!) This class was vitally important to me in the transition from High School to College level writing. Since I had the privilege of taking this class with upperclassmen I feel as though I've had to grow - maturity wise - to keep up with everyone! I also feel as though I've grown as a writer. (And I hope to continue that growth!) All these things were not necessarily things I expected from that one line course description.

Another thing I got from this class that was outside the summary...Is this awesome opportunity to blog! It has definitely been an adventure! It has helped me learn:

1. First and foremost, about myself! I feel as though I've gained knowledge about myself through finding topics that I find interesting enough to blog about! Blogging has helped me to rediscover my love for writing! I feel as though my writing voice has been found, and heard (at least by me!) through this process.
Blogging has helped me really think on different aspects of my life, and it has made me especially grateful for several things as I reflect and write on them!

2. Keep in mind that audience! Whoever you may be out there...I hope that you've found my blog at least semi - interesting(ish) If not, well...I apologize. I'll do better, I promise! :)

3. Media does communicate! Our Writing 150 course was based around the idea of New Media. Media is so huge in society today! Social networks...Online data bases...Blogs...There is so much information circulating the internet! Blogging itself has been a chance for met to add an individual touch to the masses and webs of information scattered across the internet.

Overall, I've loved this opportunity to delve into the realms of online journalism. It has grown to be less and less of a project, to be more and more of almost a leisure experience. I've fit the requirements for this class, the requirement to keep and maintain a blog over the semester...and yet I can't seem to stop thinking...I'm done? Really?

...Do I have to be? 

I'm Thankful for....American Heritage?

So! As all BYU students are aware of, we have to chose a freshman bundle....right?
And the choices are between - American Heritage, Writing 150, and a Supplement Bundle.
These are separated out for semesters for new freshman (according to my freshman mentor, they are separated because of the heavy workload required in both classes.)
And yet I, being me (who else?) decided that I was having none of that separation idea. So I took the American Heritage bundle...And then also took Writing 150...through the upperclassmen sign ups of course. (And how great that has been!)

Back to American Heritage though. How grateful I am that I decided to take both classes! (Although at one point, I did think of myself slightly crazy, and unwise. These times pass.)
It is fascinating learning about American History. As a Canadian, I have only learned the basics of it in the pass. I've heard Washington's name...I knew what the Boston Tea Party was...and I knew that there was a Civil War on Slavery...Basics like that.

















Yet, in this class, I was going up against people who have know this stuff all their lives! And it got me thinking. Do these people who live here recognize just how incredible their history is? By all means, I've found it fascinating!  I've loved learning about the ideological changes concerning freedom throughout the years. I've loved studying great men like Madison, Washington, Martin Luther King Jr. and so forth! I've enjoyed coming to know the Declaration of Independence, and the Constitution, vital and inspired documents that have had such an impact in the formation of America!
It is cool to see how different events that occurred so long ago have such a large effect on the world today! I've thought it to be a great opportunity to study it from a foreign perspective. (Being know as "Canada" in my lab was great, not gunna lie.) It has been especially great to look at these things from a BYU and an LDS perspective. I'm truly grateful for the opportunity (however hard) to learn these things.

All this and more have made me come to a conclusion:

Although I love Canada the most (naturally)....I now have a great respect for...and even feel fondness towards this great country of the United States of America.

Christmas is coming!!

Wow. I cannot express how very excited I am for Christmas this year.

Although Christmas is always the same holiday, I honestly believe that it changes due to the experience I'm going through that said year.
So therefore, this year is special, for a few reasons!

1. It's so suddenly here! In Canada, our thanksgiving comes around a month before American Thanksgiving...so we begin getting ready for Christmas about a month earlier than most! Although I love the Christmas spirit being present for so long, it is easily to lose anticipation for it since it is drawn out so long. Now that Christmas is JUST around the corner, I'm getting more and more excited about the songs, decorations, messages and so forth that are coming!

2. Family say what? I've never been away from home before in my life! That being said, it's going to be beautiful to go and spend time with my long lost family! It's probably what I'm looking forward to the most! I'm planning on spending as much time as I possibly can with my nieces and nephews. (They're so cute!)

3. Christmas as a college student. Ok. So this reason is probably the most selfish one. Haha :) BUT it's most likely that for Christmas I'll be getting some much needed things for college...For example...Food! Or pans! Or a cheese grater! Glorious.

4. Being here in Utah! Since I'm here, I've had the opportunity to hear carolers on campus, go to University musicals such as White Christmas (So good!) and go see the lights on temple square! They were beautiful. :) My particular favorite part was the nativity and candles on the reflection pool. 

There was also a great message last Sunday with the first Presidency concerning Christmas. All of their messages were based around keeping the true meaning of Christmas central to our celebration. I agree that it is important to keep in mind the true meaning and spirit of Christmas. (This isn't on the list....because I try to make this true of every Christmas season.) I know that when I've done that, my Christmas is filled with gratitude and love, truly making the holiday a better experience for me. I hope that I can keep that in mind this Christmas.


And I hope that I can always keep that in mind hereafter.

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Personal Narrative - Final Draft!


A Fountain of Youth
“Walking group will meet at the entrance in five minutes. That’s walking group, at the entrance in five minutes.” My voice, projected from the intercom on the wall beside the Activity Coordination office, echoed throughout the entirety of Clearview Lodge.
 I stood, tapping my fingers against my jeans and looked to the wall on my left. A gold trimmed mirror positioned above a burgundy couch lent me a glimpse of my reflection, and I brushed my thick brown curls out of my green eyes and adjusted my purple cardigan. Revealed past my figure was the image of a long hallway, populated by two residents slowly making their way back to their rooms from breakfast.
                Routine was imperative to the seniors at Clearview. Meal blocks were daily at eight, eleven and five.  Exercises were to be held every Monday and Wednesday at ten. The games and activities, that I was partly in charge of, respected the same rules. Baking group was scheduled for every Tuesday at nine. Bingo was to be indubitably held every Tuesday and Thursday at three. (And I was warned that should this would ever be forgotten, a rebellion would ensue.) On that same boat, walking group was every Monday and Wednesday at nine.
                “Hey good lookin’!” A high pitched, teasing voice called out. I turned grinning, internally preparing myself for the daily exchange with Art.
                He wobbled on his walking stick, approaching me. “Hey!” He called out, looking up at me with light grey eyes, and making sure he had my unwavering attention.  He motioned at me with his cane. “You got the money, honey, I got the time!”
                A classic Art pickup line. He was the type to bobble down a hallway, calling the same line boldly to all ladies - no matter what age or looks they were blessed with. A glint in his eyes hinted that if the age of his body matched the age of his personality, he would be a waggish boy of eighteen.
                “Sorry Art,” I laughed, “I’m afraid I don’t have the time today – and you’re going to have to show me that money first!”
                His pointed chin wrinkled as he pursed his lips, a merry sparkle still dancing in his eyes. “Hey!” he repeated in the same tone, questioning. “Do you have a boyfriend?”
                I shook my head and shrugged, shaking with laughter.
                He raised his small white eyebrows at me. “What’s a good lookin’ girl like you doing without a boyfriend?”
                I began, “Well Art I…” but he had turned his attention towards another of the staff passing by, approaching her and calling out, “Hey! You got the money, honey, I got the time!”
                I looked back, smiling and shaking my head as I approached the entrance of the lodge, the meeting place of the aged inhabitants of Clearview who wished to accompany me on a walk. I gazed expectantly around the room. It was a good turnout today.
                “Hey guys, are you ready for a walk today?” I asked cheerily, delighted. Four seniors waited patiently on a bench and in a wheelchair for me by the door. I was met with a friendly nod from Wanda, a look of determination from Susan, a ‘Yes ma’am’ from Frances and a smile from Dora. The cockatiels in the nearby cages squeaked, as if to protest our chance to enjoy nature’s elements without them.
“Alrighty then, let’s go!”  I positioned myself at the end of Dora’s wheelchair, heading the group, as they slowly pushed themselves up with the handles of their walkers. With Dora and me in the lead, we climbed through the two automatic doors and began our slow crusade outside.
                Dora’s wheelchair glided smoothly down the ramp. The metal on the framing her wheel glinted in the sunlight. A slight breeze ruffled the cuffs of her burgundy sweater. She closed her eyes, as if to enjoy a moment’s contentment, and then looked up at me with hazel eyes, her large, silvered curls a replica of the lazy clouds scattered above in the blue sky.
                “You know, this is the first time I’ve been able to come outside like this in a long, long time.” Her voice, low and soft, was thick with gratitude. “I would like to thank you for doing this for us.”
                “No problem, Dora,” I replied, caught unawares by her acknowledgment. Warmth filled me, and I smiled. I loved my job. Not only was it fun and full of rewarding opportunities to serve, but the relationships I built with those I spent my time with were irreplaceable.
                We made our leisurely, drawn out way down the sidewalk, the skate park to our right. It was not vacant at this time in the morning, but I knew that come afternoon it would be filled to the rim with the sounds and sight of eager kids and venturesome teens with rimmed hats on bikes, scooters and skateboards, jumping and dipping up and down the ramps on their wheels. To our left was Main Street, which was humming with the sounds of business and vehicles passing by.
                “Watch out!” I heard Wanda breathe jokingly as she gently feigned ramming her walker into the back of my shoe.
                “Oops,” I stated, “better get out of the way of the faster traffic!” I pushed Dora to the right side of the sidewalk as Wanda shuffled past me. Although she was a whopping 101 years of age, she didn’t look or act a day under eighty-five. Full of pranks and mischievous tricks, she was the one of the spunkiest seniors to populate Clearview’s halls. Soon she was ahead of me, her white curls bobbing atop her small frame.
                I turned my attention behind me, towards Frances and Susan. “How are you ladies doing?”
                Frances smiled her big smile at me, emphasizing the wrinkles by her eyes and cheeks. Her curled salt and pepper hair rippled in the breeze.  “It’s lovely hearing the songs of the birds.” The tallest of the bunch, she would be just under six feet tall if she was not bent down with age.
                We walked on, carefully minding our steps, and chatting casually. We slipped gratefully into the cool shadows of the park trees, for although it was morning the weather seemed to suggest the upcoming stifling heat of a startlingly warm summer’s day. The interior of the park was calm, the canopy of trees creating a shelter from the impending heat.  Park slides and equipment for child’s play lay at the far east end of the park. A small, concrete path wound on the inside of the park, lined with the occasional park bench and picnic table. Sprinklers irrigated the soft, green grass, covering the winding path inside with rippling puddles.
                “What do you say, Wanda?” I joked, “Should we take the path with the sprinklers? That would cool us down!” I grinned at her, and back at Frances and Susan, the former looking shocked while the latter seemed outright petrified by my statement.
                “Oh no, I think we better stay right on this path here,” recommended Frances, motioning to the path that bordered the road and the park.
Simultaneously Susan said, “Us older ladies aren’t like you young kids. We don’t like getting wet. We like to stay nice and warm. So we better not.” She straightened out the collar of her navy sweater. I consented, having previously come to that conclusion. Our company continued our sure way onward on the sidewalk edged by the line of park trees.
We were making our way to the edge of the block, midway through the park, when a pssshhhhh sound stopped us in our path. A flurry of activity surrounded us as dormant sprinklers sprang to life on the grass immediately to our right.
My mind raced. “Uh oh!” I proclaimed. The ladies looked at me with widening eyes.
“Come here, quick!” I called, motioning them towards me. We gathered in a clutter.
“We’re going to get wet!” Wanda proclaimed, accusing me jokingly. Luckily we had not gotten in the line of fire…yet.  I observed the scene. The sprinklers seemed to be making similar, round paths. As they gained pressure, they slowly circled, the one beside us spraying away from us towards the park. I waited to see if the sprinkler ahead of us would turn our way, and when it did not, I motioned towards my girls.
 “Hurry!” I called, pushing Dora ahead of me, as we all rolled our walkers and wheelchair with all the speed that we could muster. We stopped at a gap. Three more sprinklers lay ahead.
“So much for deciding not walking through the sprinklers today!” I laughed, lightening the mood as we checked to see if we could clear the next area without getting wet. Frances smiled, although there was a glimmer of worry in her eyes. Susan appeared shocked, and let out a nervous laugh.
 “Ok, ready, set, GO!” We raced past the next area. Two more sprinklers to go. I looked back, then forward, breathing heavily. We would have to time ourselves just right to avoid getting sprayed. As the sprinklers gained pressure, they sprayed in larger and larger projectiles within their sphere of space. The sprinkler ahead of us cleared the sidewalk, and we all hustled, the seniors white hair streaming as they gained all the speed they could safely muster.
We needed to pass one more sprinkler, and then we would be at the end of the block, to warmth, and safety.  Luckily we all had managed to avoid getting wet so far. The path ahead of us was blocked by raining droplets of spraying water curving our way. We waited patiently, the ladies catching their breath, when I looked back and -
“WATCH OUT!” I called out desperately, and dove to shield Dora with my body. The sprinkler to our backs had turned on us, and we were caught in the sprays crossfire!
“Run! Run! Run!” We called out, and hustled through, droplets pouring on us, soaking through our clothing and plastering our hair to our head. We put our heads down, and ran ahead, the ladies I was with moving faster than I believed was possible. With a cry of success, I cleared the sprinklers path, with the others filing towards me in quick succession.
Panting, we all looked at each other – and burst out laughing. I looked up, basking in the joyous sunlight.
“Well,” I declared, “There’s nothing like having a little adventure in the morning eh?”
“That’s one way to put it!” Susan admitted, smiling, brushing back her straight, damp hair.
“Oh dear!” laughed Dora, “that almost made me feel like a young girl again!”
I answered, shaking water droplets from my hair. “Well, in a way, we never grow up, right?”
The ladies chuckled their agreement.
Still amused, Susan announced, “You know what we’re missing on this walk? Music. I always walk with music playing.” She opened the seat of her walker, to reveal a CD player cradled in the case hidden within. She pressed a button, and classical music pervaded through the air. She casually snapped back on the lid, and led the way across the road, bobbing up and down, heading back towards Clearview. Still light with mirth, refreshed by our unexpected experience, we followed her.

Friday, December 2, 2011

PERFECTIONISM - Helps or Inhibits?

I don't know about you, but I'm well familiar with the feeling of staring at a blank page, hesitant to start writing a paper. I know the feeling of thinking, tapping my fingers against my keyboard, and refusing to type.













Perfectionism. Is it a good thing, or is it bad?
(and even now I'm plagued with the same problem mentioned above.)
Alright. Just write Rachel Bennett. Just write.
For example, these blog posts! I write it, preview it, edit it, preview it, and continue this process until I'm satisfied. THEN what usually happens is I re-read that post on my blog, and I find something else that I can add or edit! So I go back and change it! This usually happens on average a 1 - 6 times per blog. It amuses me. I guess it's just a perfectionist problem. (A very real example...I've already posted this blog post twice... or now three times, deciding I was finished, and then each time I re-read it and went back and changed it!)

It's funny, because I was mentioning this to my friend - how I'm slow to write papers because I want to get every.single.sentence.exactly.right. And he caused me to realize - I was being a perfectionist to the point that it was inhibiting and limiting me! Getting over my roadblock of halting, putting off writing, and thus leaving it until later and stressing...involves me getting over the notion that I had to be perfect! It involved me getting over the fact that no matter how much I edit, revise, add or expand, there is ALWAYS more that could be done to it! It involved me learning to just write and by doing so,  different thoughts and ideas will come! Looking back and improving an already written paper is a beautiful thing. The first step is to just write it!

By all means, being a perfectionist can be a good thing...to an extent. (and by all means I am NOT perfect...my procrastinating habits can attest to that!) It can help to push me into reaching a higher level in my work and learning than I already do. But if that perfectionism causes me to stress, or causes me to hesitate doing projects and papers because of a fear of failure or reaching the level I want it to, this is when it constrains me instead of helping me reach higher heights.

I'm just glad I have the chance to learn this now, so I can be better in the future.

I'm a NERD. And I enjoy it.

You know what? I think it's healthy to have some NERD interests....things to get excited about! And quote extensively! Or play thoroughly! Or be straight up expert on!
So yes. I am blogging about my nerd interests.

For example, we all grew up with something, movies, video games etc that may have changed our lives right? For me, this was Star Wars.


I love it! And don't start me quoting it, because I WILL know more than you wish to know! Star Wars Trivia? My forte. This is about the extent of my nerd interest on this one....My family made Bennett Star Wars. We made our own, homemade versions of the movies. They're hilarious...to me, and I consider them a vital part of my childhood. Love it.

Next? Well ZELDA of course! It's because of this franchise that I consider(ed) myself a gamer. I love them! I've played every Zelda game that I possibly could, including all the old ones. They helped me explore my imagination, and stretch my problem solving skills. My nerd extent? I've played Ocarina of Time without using half the items, and doing dungeons in odd orders, with three hearts. (I apologize for anyone that didn't understand that.) Also, I have two Zelda shirts...a poster...piano music...soundtracks...art and so forth.

There are SO many Nerd interests out there for me! But I'm just going to have to pick a select few.
Quick blurb on Robin Hood! (BBC) What an incredible series! I'm convinced they changed my life. Extent of my nerd interest? I basically watched all 3 seasons in four days! I definitely recommend them. (And Richard Armitage, my favorite actor, plays Guy of Gisborne!) My friend randomly called me, basically thanking me for mentioning them to him, because despite his incoming finals, he could not stop
                                                                                                 watching them until they were done!

And FINALLY Lord of the Rings. AND upcoming The Hobbit! The books are incredible. The movies are phenomenal. (I've watched all the extended versions...and all 10+ hours of special features on them.) And The Hobbit is going to be GREAT. Ask me any question and I'll know. Extent of my nerd interest? I follow Peter Jackson's facebook page, (It's the first thing that pops up when I type in a "P" in the facebook searchbar) and he does production blog video's which are amazing! (Not to mention my favorite actor...Richard Armitage...is playing the lead Dwarf.)


Anyway. Sorry for the ridiculous lengthiness of this blog.

It just got me extraordinarily excited about my nerd interests.

*Words*words*Words

Words...Words...Words. Are you listening?

This past semester, I had the wonderful opportunity to fulfill the service hours requirement for TMA 101 by being an actress in the Mask Club production of “Words*words*Words” directed by Kaelie Stout.  The show was a compilation of scenes from three of Shakespeare works, Much Ado about Nothing, Romeo and Juliet, and Othello, with an emphasis on the theme of miscommunication. 
This was an amazing opportunity for me. I felt as if I learned so much by being given a chance to be a part of this show.
I feel as though I have grown a great deal as an actress in these short months being part of this show, even more than I learned in the entirety of my senior year in high school. I learned more than I ever have before, how to better empathize with my character, actually allowing emotions to come to me genuinely instead of putting on a presentational mask of emotions. This helped me to connect to my character, Desdemona, in a much more personal way.
I also learned of the importance of having unity within the cast. I believe that it is vitally important in a show to trust and help those around you, on stage and off. Not only did I eventually gain this trust for my cast mates, director and stage manager/crew, but I was able to build up valuable friendships because of it.
One thing that I really feel I’ve learned….is that there is so much more that I can learn! There is so much more I can grow. By learning and listening to those with experience and insight, I not only feel as though there is much that I can improve on, but also that there is so much more I could perceive and understand when looking on theatre and drama.
In TMA 101, there has been an emphasis on bringing the gospel into theatre, which is something I have rarely experienced before, save for re-enactments done at Moroni’s Quest (an experience like Trek.) This is something that I was truly able to experience as being part of this show. Not only did we strive to bring the spirit into the rehearsal process, but I feel as though the theme of communication we strove to bring to the production was able to help me realize personally the importance of communication in my life, and also the importance of having the spirit in order to communicate.
Overall, “Words*words*Words” was an experience that personally meant a lot to me, for it was an opportunity to build trust and friendships, work hard, overcome fears, and learn so much.

I’m truly grateful for it.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Look at the Past...Realize the Future

The other day I was taken on a date, first to J-Dawgs, and then on to a Women's BYU Basketball Game.
Normal, fun, casual date right? But I found that upon going to the women's game, I was hit by a strange wall of nostalgia.


As a child, our family would always try to come down for a yearly trip down to BYU. Shopping and seeing University attending siblings was just a pleasant bonus. The main reason for coming down was to watch BYU sports. (Especially for my dad, who is the epitome of BYU fans.) Football games, Boys and Girls basketball games, even volleyball games, if we had the time we'd see them all.

My dad would especially be interested in taking me to the women's basketball games. He was a basketball coach, in fact, he was my coach when I played Senior Varsity basketball. That being said, he took every opportunity possible with me growing up to teach me every aspect of the game.

I remember as a kid, going to the gym with my dad, or to basketball camps - over sized shirts and mismatched running shoes, the ball huge in my small hands - with the dream that one day, when I was older, I would be good at basketball. In fact, I wanted to be the best girl basketball player in my family. Not only that, but I wanted to be good enough to play in University or College some day - and since our family was such fans, BYU was at the center most of my thoughts. For a long time basketball was a huge focus and passion in my life.

Looking back on that dream at the game, it caused me to reflect on how my life did not take the course I planned it to as a kid. It turned out very different. There were many twists, turns and suprises for me in store. It is fascinating to look back on how and why my focuses and interests shifted. It is intriguing to think on the things that happened that changed my life and turned me into who I am today.

By all means, I turned out to be an adequate basketball player...But looking back, I know that BYU basketball wasn't what life had in store for me.

But looking forward, I'm excited to find out the things life does have in store.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

INCOMING!

It's hard to believe that my first semester at university (and BYU!) is drawing to a conclusion. I feel as though I've grown in leaps and bounds in this time...And yet at the same time it has all gone by so fast.

Finals week has always seemed like an impending time of fear. Whenever my older siblings mentioned final week, it would almost always be accompanied by a shudder. For me, I know that it is what I make of it. It can be a nightmare for me....OR it could be an experience that I am well prepared for, and therefore is a pleasant end to a long road, a conclusion to a journey of learning. It's my choice, I guess.

Of course, I do have particular fears. American Heritage is one of these. Not only does it teach American History (Something as a Canadian I have not learned as in-depth as I would like) but it requires application, something that I struggle with on multiple choice tests.
But, as it is said, if I am prepared I shall not fear!


I hope that's the case for my finals.

Kaboom!

 I've never shot a gun in my life. Except one small time. At a girl's camp. It was a fact that I was sad to admit. Although there are gun restrictions and control in Canada where i'm from, we still owned a gun as a farming family. It was part of the culture.

That being said, it was Dad's job to take us all out and teach us how to shoot the gun. All nine of us (me being the second youngest) were obliged to at least learn how to shoot it, to protect the farm from any encroaching ruffian animals (particularly of the furry, rodent type)

This happened to everyone. Except for me. Somehow I was missed. Awesome. Not.

It's curious to me. To this day i'm not sure why it happened. (Although I still tease that it was a matter of child preference.) :)

So, I spend this thanksgiving with a family of one my good friend who lives here in Utah. His family is excited about my visit, and one of the activities they deem necessary is that we go shooting.

I couldn't hide my excitement about this...Although I was slightly worried that I might fail, and epically.

Luckily I was in good hands. Two in the family, including their dad, were certified gun trainers. I was taught the rules and ropes of shooting a gun, and then we drove out to the range.
The youngest brother began. To my shock, this was not target practice as I expected it to be. A clay, disk like apparatus, (later I learned they were called clay pigeon) was shot out of a house into the sky at the press of a button. My friends little brother aimed, fired, and kaboom! The clay pigeon shattered.



 Left: Clay Pigeons. These would be flung into the air like a Frisbee by a machine and would fall in a projectile. It was my job to aim and shoot before it fell.








Soon it was my turn. I knew I learn fast, but I wasn't sure how well I would do at this particular task. I took up my newly learned form for my practice shots.
I was ready. "Pull!" I called out, and the button was pushed. Aim and fire! Miss.

 I proceeded to miss all my practice shots. Yet I was reassured I was close. I expected this result....but at the same time the competitive part of me wanted to be as deadly of an aim as everyone around me.
Soon it was my turn. Again. My friends father gave me the advice to start my aim more to the right, to compensate for the wind. I nodded, adjusted my aim, paused, then "pull!"

Another clay pigeon projected into the air, until BANG! It exploded.

I lowered the gun, happily. I did it! Yet I put it off as luck. Until, in my next shot, I hit it. And then again. And again. And again!

To this day I don't know how I did it, but on my first try at shooting clay pigeons, I was able to hit 20/25 of my targets after my initial shots. My friend's family, impressed, regarded me as a natural. I was honored - but attributed it to the fact that I had excellent teachers.

Yet, not gunna lie, it was pretty fun having that much success during my first try.

Personal Narrative

“Walking group will meet at the entrance in five minutes. That’s walking group, at the entrance in five minutes.” My voice, projected from the intercom on the wall beside the Activity Coordination office, echoed throughout the entirety of Clearview Lodge.
                I stood, tapping my fingers against my jeans and looked to the wall on my left. A gold trimmed mirror positioned above a burgundy couch lent me a glimpse of my reflection, and I brushed my thick brown curls out of my green eyes and adjusted my purple cardigan. Revealed past my figure was the image of a long hallway, populated by two residents slowly making their way back to their rooms from breakfast.
                Routine was an imperative to the seniors at Clearview. Meal blocks were daily at eight, eleven and five.  Exercises were to be held every Monday and Wednesday at ten. The games and activities, that I was partly in charge of, respected the same rules. Baking group was scheduled for every Tuesday at nine. Bingo was to be indubitably held every Tuesday and Thursday at three. (And I was warned that should this would ever be forgotten, a rebellion would ensue.) On that same boat, walking group was every Monday and Wednesday at nine.
                “Hey good lookin’!” A high pitched, teasing voice called out. I turned grinning, internally preparing myself for the daily exchange with Art.
                He wobbled on his walking stick, approaching me. “Hey!” He called out, looking up at me with light grey eyes, and making sure he had my unwavering attention.  He motioned at me with his cane. “I got the money, honey, you got the time!”
                A classic Art pickup line. He was the type to bobble down a hallway, calling the same line boldly to all ladies - no matter what age or looks they were blessed with. A glint in his eyes hinted that if the age of his body matched the age of his personality, he would be a waggish boy of eighteen.
                “Sorry Art,” I laughed, “I’m afraid I don’t have the time today – and you’re going to have to show me that money first!”
                His pointed chin wrinkled as he pursed his lips, a merry sparkle still dancing in his eyes. “Hey!” he repeated in the same tone, questioning. “Do you have a boyfriend?”
                I shook my head and shrugged, shaking with laughter.
                He raised his small white eyebrows at me. “What’s a good lookin’ girl like you doing without a boyfriend?”
                I began, “Well Art I…” but he had turned his attention towards another of the staff passing by, approaching her and calling out, “Hey! I got the money, honey, you got the time!”
                I looked back, smiling and shaking my head as I approached the entrance of the lodge, the meeting place of the aged inhabitants of Clearview who wished to accompany me on a walk. I gazed expectantly around the room. It was a good turnout today.
                “Hey guys, are you ready for a walk today?” I asked cheerily, delighted. Four seniors waited patiently on a bench and in a wheelchair for me by the door. I was met with a friendly nod from Wanda, a look of determination from Susan, a ‘Yes ma’am’ from Frances and a smile from Dora. The cockatiels in the nearby cages squeaked, as if to protest our chance to enjoy nature’s elements without them.
“Alrighty then, let’s go!”  I positioned myself at the end of Dora’s wheelchair, heading the group, as they slowly pushed themselves up with the handles of their walkers. With Dora and me in the lead, we climbed through the two automatic doors and began our slow crusade outside.
                Dora’s wheelchair glided smoothly down the ramp. The metal on the framing her wheel glinted in the sunlight. A slight breeze ruffled the cuffs of her burgundy sweater. She closed her eyes, as if to enjoy a moment’s contentment, and then looked up at me with hazel eyes, her large, silvered curls a replica of the lazy clouds scattered above in the blue sky.
                “You know, this is the first time I’ve been able to come outside like this in a long, long time.” Her voice, low and soft, was thick with gratitude. “I would like to thank you for doing this for us.”
                “No problem, Dora,” I replied, caught unawares by her acknowledgment. Warmth filled me, and I smiled. I loved my job. Not only was it fun and full of rewarding opportunities to serve, but the relationships I built with those I spent my time with were irreplaceable.
                We made our leisurely, drawn out way down the sidewalk, the skate park to our right. It was not vacant at this time in the morning, but I knew that come afternoon it would be filled to the rim with the sounds and sight of eager kids and venturesome teens with rimmed hats on bikes, scooters and skateboards, jumping and dipping up and down the ramps on their wheels. To our left was Main Street, which was humming with the sounds of business and vehicles passing by.
                “Watch out!” I heard Wanda breathe jokingly as she gently feigned ramming her walker into the back of my shoe.
                “Oops,” I stated, “better get out of the way of the faster traffic!” I pushed Dora to the right side of the sidewalk as Wanda shuffled past me. Although she was a whopping 101 years of age, she didn’t look or act a day under eighty-five. Full of pranks and mischievous tricks, she was the one of the spunkiest seniors to populate Clearview’s halls. Soon she was ahead of me, her white curls bobbing atop her small frame.
                I turned my attention behind me, towards Frances and Susan. “How are you ladies doing?”
                Frances smiled her big smile at me, emphasizing the wrinkles by her eyes and cheeks. Her curled salt and pepper hair rippled in the breeze.  “It’s lovely hearing the songs of the birds.” The tallest of the bunch, she would be just under six feet tall if she was not bent down with age.
                We walked on, carefully minding our steps, and chatting casually. We slipped gratefully into the cool shadows of the park trees, for although it was morning the weather seemed to suggest the upcoming stifling heat of a startlingly warm summer’s day. The interior of the park was calm, the canopy of trees creating a shelter from the impending heat.  Park slides and equipment for child’s play lay at the far east end of the park. A small, concrete path wound on the inside of the park, lined with the occasional park bench and picnic table. Sprinklers irrigated the soft, green grass, covering the winding path inside with rippling puddles.
                “What do you say, Wanda?” I joked, “Should we take the path with the sprinklers? That would cool us down!” I grinned at her, and back at Frances and Susan, the former looking shocked while the latter seemed outright petrified by my statement.
                “Oh no, I think we better stay right on this path here,” recommended Frances, motioning to the path that bordered the road and the park.
Simultaneously Susan said, “Us older ladies aren’t like you young kids. We don’t like getting wet. We like to stay nice and warm. So we better not.” She straightened out the collar of her navy sweater. I consented, having previously come to that conclusion. Our company continued our sure way onward on the sidewalk edged by the line of park trees.
We were making our way to the edge of the block, midway through the park, when a pssshhhhh sound stopped us in our path. A flurry of activity surrounded us as dormant sprinklers sprang to life on the grass immediately to our right.
My mind raced. “Uh oh!” I proclaimed. The ladies looked at me with widening eyes.
“Come here, quick!” I called, motioning them towards me. We gathered in a clutter.
“We’re going to get wet!” Wanda proclaimed, accusing me jokingly. Luckily we had not gotten in the line of fire…yet.  I observed the scene. The sprinklers seemed to be making similar, round paths. As they gained pressure, they slowly circled, the one beside us spraying away from us towards the park. I waited to see if the sprinkler ahead of us would turn our way, and when it did not, I motioned towards my girls.
 “Hurry!” I called, pushing Dora ahead of me, as we all rolled our walkers and wheelchair with all the speed that we could muster. We stopped at a gap. Three more sprinklers lay ahead.
“So much for deciding not walking through the sprinklers today!” I laughed, lightening the mood as we checked to see if we could clear the next area without getting wet. Frances smiled, although there was a glimmer of worry in her eyes. Susan appeared shocked, and let out a nervous laugh.
 “Ok, ready, set, GO!” We raced past the next area. Two more sprinklers to go. I looked back, then forward, breathing heavily. We would have to time ourselves just right to avoid getting sprayed. As the sprinklers gained pressure, they sprayed in larger and larger projectiles within their sphere of space. The sprinkler ahead of us cleared the sidewalk, and we all hustled, the seniors white hair streaming as they gained all the speed they could safely muster.
We needed to pass one more sprinkler, and then we would be at the end of the block, to warmth, and safety.  Luckily we all had managed to avoid getting wet so far. The path ahead of us was blocked by raining droplets of spraying water curving our way. We waited patiently, the ladies catching their breath, when I looked back and -
“WATCH OUT!” I called out desperately, and dove to shield Dora with my body. The sprinkler to our backs had turned on us, and we were caught in the sprays crossfire!
“Run! Run! Run!” We called out, and hustled through, droplets pouring on us, soaking through our clothing and plastering our hair to our head. We put our heads down, and ran ahead, the ladies I was with moving faster than I believed was possible. With a cry of success, I cleared the sprinklers path, with the others filing towards me in quick succession.
Panting, we all looked at each other – and burst out laughing. I looked up, basking in the joyous sunlight.
“Well,” I declared, “There’s nothing like having a little adventure in the morning eh?”
“That’s one way to put it!” Susan admitted, smiling, brushing back her straight, damp hair. “You know what we’re missing on this walk? Music. I always walk with music playing.” She opened the seat of her walker, to reveal a CD player cradled in the case hidden within. She pressed a button, and classical music pervaded through the air. She casually snapped back on the lid, and led the way across the road, bobbing up and down, heading back towards Clearview. Still light with mirth, refreshed by our unexpected experience, we followed her.

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Distance makes the heart grow fonder

     It's Thanksgiving Season....for America at least. But since i've come down yonder for my education, I guess I can celebrate it too. :)

     Thanksgiving is a time and season that allows me to think on what I am grateful for. And not only that, but to think of all I have that I usually take for granted.

      For example, take this weekend. My parents and little brother (Nathan) came down from Canada to visit me and my sister! (And...most importantly...to watch BYU sports (the boys) and shop (my mom.))
      I'm not homesick. I haven't even felt the urge to visit Canada yet. But, the opportunity to spend this time with my family turned out to be a time when I could really appreciate and be thankful for Family and for all they do for me.

     It was really great to spend time with them, to hear their voices, to make my mom laugh, and just overall reminisce of all the good times we've had together.The experience made me think of the rest of my family, and how much I miss them. (ESPECIALLY my nieces and nephews!)
      It made me really appreciate all my parents have done for me. I forgot what it was like for my parents to buy me food, or take me shopping. I enjoy and am used to the independence, but it made me really thankful when they were willing to do such things. (Spend money on me? Say what?)

     One thing I am specially grateful for is that my parents taught me the importance of hard work. I grew up on a small farm, and that being said I had to often help out with the farm work growing up.
      My siblings and I knew what it was like to sacrifice things i.e. hanging out with friends - to help out on the family farm. I will never regret the experiences I had gathering chicken eggs, chasing cows, lifting hay bails, moving pipes, hoeing beets, planting gardens and so forth. It wasn't easy, but looking back I am grateful for all the things these experiences have done for me. They helped me develop close relationships with my siblings. They have helped me adjust to the work load and diligence that university requires. They helped me to become who I am today.

I'm glad I had the chance to spend time with family and ponder all these things at the beginning of this short, glad, thanking-filled holiday.

Because, like it's said, distance does make the heart grow fonder.

Friday, November 18, 2011

The beginning of the End...

Life just keeps on coming! I've had a crazy past few weeks here at BYU!
I never thought that I would be in such need of a holiday! That being said, I am superbly excited for the Thanksgiving Break.

Life seems to always be coming at me. I'll have an insanely busy week, and finally come at the end of it expecting relief, only to notice that my next week is coming up fast and as busy as the last! Or at least, this has been the pattern my life has fallen into of late.

This chaos (I guess I can call it that :P) has led me to ponder some questions. Am I really that busy, or does my stressing about what I need to do amplify my apparent work load to more than it already is? Is this really what university is like? Do I manage my time to the best of my abilities? Or do I somehow justify putting off homework? Do I enjoy being as busy as I say I do? Am I prioritizing in the right way?

I could ask so much more. But on the bright side I think that with time, experience, diligence and faith, I can learn from these experiences, and become a better (and less stressed!) student because of it. So, come Thanksgiving I hope I can set away some time after, when finals approach (the beginning of the end!) I can be prepared and be at the helm of my life instead of letting the winds and waves around me take me where they will!

Because I know that if I'm prepared, I shall not fear.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Research Paper!

Hello! It's Bennett. Rachel Bennett. And I am here to tell you about my research project (that conveniently is due...tomorrow! Yikes!)

I wanted to take this opportunity to research something that would:
1. Interest me (Naturally) :)
2. Educate me (Why not take this chance to learn something?!)
3. Be something I would find interesting to write about. (It is a 10 page paper after all!)

So, my mind began spinning, searching for something, anything that interested me. First thought: Musicals! And then: Mental Block. What would I specifically research about musicals, that would require research, AND would connect to the topic of media?
In this state, I typed in "musicals" and "media" in the search bar.
And lo and behold! Guess what came up? ......WICKED.




















Just this past summer, I had the opportunity to go see Wicked on Broadway! It was remarkable. I was rendered speechless for at least an hour after. Just ask the witnesses.

Then, following my initial excitement (and nostalgia) at coming upon Wicked :) It came to me. I would write on contemporary musicals and the influence they can have as a commentary on society!
Specifically, I wanted to talk about the musical, Wicked, since I was already comfortably acquainted with it.
Therefore, I would search up thematically and due to the storyline, what message(s) Wicked contained about society!
Luckily, I was able to find several sources on the topic. One thing that especially stuck out to me was the ability Wicked had to speak on/challenge stereotypes. Specifically, there were many studies of stereotypes in Wicked in terms of those marginalized in civilization, and also of stereotypes in terms of gender roles, power and leadership! That's it! I would talk about media, stereotypes ascribed in society, and how Wicked reinforced and warned against these!

With that in mind, I could hardly wait to get started.


I just hope that others will enjoy the final product as much as I do.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Gives Me Chills


Last night I had the privilege to attend the BYU mainstage production of "The Elephant Man."
Originally, my motivation for going to this production was purely academic, although the concept of did mildly intrigue me.

But I will ever be glad I went.

This production - based on a true story - was extraordinary. Not only was the concept deep and moving, but attention to detail was at its utmost and in a word, exquisite. It had the capability not to simply be a performance with the goal to entertain. Instead, it allowed an audience to be absorbed in the production to the point where we were no longer removed from it. In a sense we became a part of it.


 A good script cannot be good without capable actors and actresses, so allow me a moment to comment on the sheer talent of the entire cast involved. They amazed me. One actor in particular stood out, for he played the role of the "Elephant Man" or "Joseph." This character deals with major physical disfigurements and distortions, and the way the actor embraced that in his characterization was remarkable. We as an audience had no doubts of his believability.

The craftsmanship of this show was beautiful as well. Although the nature of the "Elephant Man's" disfigurement caused others to be repulsed by him to the point that he was labelled a freak of nature, in reality it was he who was the figure of beauty, in the way he saw the world and those around him. The perception of others was clouded by their outlook on the physical, and their inability to truly understand those around them. I continue to be amazed at the precision artistic choices made in this play lent to that idea. Its beauty rendered me to tears and caused me to wish to have a greater understanding of the beauty around me.

I dare not say more, except to say that if you  are at BYU and have a chance to watch this show before it closes on November 12, do so! It is well worth it, several times over.

In fact...

It may be that it was the best production I have, and ever may see, during my days on this campus.

(all images were found at http://www.byuarts.com/calendar/eventdescription_v2.php?eventid=54)

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Words of a Prophet

Rain.
This morning, I stepped out of the apartment this morning to walk to school. To my dismay, the BYU campus that of late has become my world was transformed into a reflective wetland. Leaves stuck to the puddle adorned sidewalks, soaking the hems of my jeans as I trudged to class.

Yet I wasn’t about to allow this misty weather to dampen my spirits. No, today I was going to hear the Prophet, President Monson speak live for the first time in my life. That's something worth being excited for.
That being said, I could hardly wait for devotional to begin.
















The Prophet addressed us in a way that was a stark contrast to the cold weather outside. His love and warmth towards us is easy to recognize, along with the incredible spirit he brings. His words were clearly inspired, and helped unite us as a student body, and lift us individually.
He reminded me of the importance of having faith, and keeping a personal testimony. He spoke specifically of being a light to the world, a subject that has always been close to my heart.
His words reminded me of specific people who have been lights in my life through their incredible examples, be it specific friends, family members, or incredible examples in my community and wards. Looking back, I know that looking up to these people has changed my life, for the better. They have inspired me to change, and to strive to become the best that I can be, because of their love and example.
Outside can be dark, dark and depressing, not only the weather, but also the ways and standards of the world. I hope I can keep my personal light aflame, and stand as a shining light to the world around me. I hope, as President Monson encouraged us, that someday I can be an influence for good to those around me.
So that someday I can help bring light to someone when they're having a rainy day.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Conference Insights: Avoid Distractions.

Look! A distraction!
*Looks* ..... *Is Distracted*
Ok! Oh, what's with the distraction? Well...I guess I'll explain that later. :)

So. A few weeks back (the first weekend of October to be exact) was General Conference. And let me tell you, I LOVE General Conference. Seriously, it not only makes my week, it makes my month. And even my year. Or half year. ;)
For those unfamiliar with General Conference, it's basically a time set aside every six months, where the leaders of my church, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, gather together and speak about the Gospel.
Since I'm going to school here at BYU, I had the great opportunity to be close to Conference as it was held. (BYU is in Provo, Utah....Conference is in Salt Lake.) Exciting.

Although all the talks were important, and applicable to my life, there was one talk in particular that stood out in my mind.
Ian S. Ardern. His talk? All about time.
Eh? See the connection?
Distractions. I'm so easily distracted! Too easily actually! In my college life, I try to prioritize...the Gospel and Education come first and foremost, BUT....
And this is where this talk comes in. :) It's exactly what I needed to hear.

I think that his talk is extremely applicable to everyone - There is not one of us who doesn't deal with time. His words were thoughtful and insightful. I really recommend watching it. (Here. I'll post a link.) :)
http://lds.org/general-conference/2011/10/a-time-to-prepare?lang=eng

 In his talk, Ian S. Ardern said, "Time is never for sale; time is a commodity that cannot, try as you may, be bought at any store for any price. Yet when time is wisely used, its value is immeasurable."
I know that this is true. Time in invaluable. Time is limited. It is extremely important in this life to use our precious time to the best of our abilities, in a way that our Heavenly Father wants us to.

I know that everyday it is easily to wish to use time to to the best of our abilities, and yet it is so easy to fall into habits that simply waste our precious time.

 For example, Brother Ardern brought up instant communication...which is "quite literally at our fingertips." Texting, Tweeting, Facebook...these things can be good...If used in moderation. But if they constantly begging for our attention, consuming our interest and time, I think it's time to stop, and think of how to use our time more productively. Me? I'm guilty. For sure. That's why this talk was so good for me. But I also recognize the importance of using time to the best of my ability, by setting goals, trying to avoid distractions, and being productive, helpful and willing to serve those around me. Am I perfect? By all means, no. But if I set a goal...To set goals...To be productive, I'm sure I'll make a better use of my time. And if I do that I know I'll be happier, and more successful.

Brother Ardern also said that, "...we must devote our time to the things that matter most, and the things of God matter most."
Service, Scriptures, Prayer, Family...All these things (and so much more!) are vital to make time for in our daily lives!
Like Brother Uchtdorf said: "in family relationships, love is really spelled T-I-M-E."
I know these things to be true. If I allow the Gospel to become the central focus of my life, all other aspects will fall in place, along with the time to do them.
And then - I'll be the master of time...Instead of time being a master over me. :)

And that, my friends, would make all the difference.

Friday, September 30, 2011

Here or There?...Here.

JUST A SMALL TOWN GIRL....

That's me! Just a Canadian (Eh?) girl making her way in the world.
Lately people have been asking me..."Hey Rachel! Is it different for you here in the city? Don't you miss the quiet farm? Aren't you homesick at all?"
I think it over.
I love Canada...Family...Familiar faces...The prairie wind blowing through my hair...The brilliant expanse of stars sparkling in the open night sky, daring me to think on the eternities...paired with the occasional mystery of the Northern Lights weaving colour through the darkness...














Yes I do love Canada. But do I miss it there?

Not at all.
 
Not that I'm not fond of the place. I am! But living here, learning here, and finally having the chance to kick-start my life of independence? There is nowhere else I'd rather be!

What amazes me about BYU is the sheer amount of diversity. As a Canadian farm girl, it is fascinating to see so many different people with different perspectives, backgrounds, ambitions, knowledge and talent! I love it, but at the same time I think that it would be, and it is easy to become overwhelmed, or even to become reserved in areas such as sharing individual talents, because of the sheer amount of others in our surroundings that are extremely talented.

In this case, for myself and for others that may feel similar, I believe it is vitally important to focus on becoming the best you can personally be, instead of constantly comparing yourself to others. I know this to be true, and I believe that it's easier to be happy if followed! We are all blessed with a diversity of individual gifts and talents. (See Matthew 25) So don't be afraid. Develop your talents. Share your talents. Strive to be the best you can be. Grow. Learn. Don't be afraid of failure! Overcome trials. Be Happy. :)

And for those at BYU, remember...No matter much diversity there is around us, there is one thing that remains as a consistent bond between us all, and that is the Gospel, and who we are and what we stand for because of it.

And that, my friends, is what I love about BYU the most.