Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Evaluative Conclusion...

It's an interesting thing. When coming to college, registration is a part of the process. We go in and look up classes that either we take an interest to, or that are required to take (eventually at least) to graduate. Lucky for me, Writing 150 fit under both those categories....But that's for talking about...later.
When we sign up for these classes, all we get really is a one sentence description - one line (like a thesis?) that is supposed to adequately summarize up the entire semester.

Yet I've found out that what I've got out of these classes is so much more than what I was expecting from the course description!

For example, take my theatre class! Was I expecting to write a play, produce a play, have a great many laughs, learn about the gospel, gain life knowledge about myself and others, make valuable friends, have the chance to see incredible shows and all in all learn more than I ever expected to? No I was not...But I did...And I'm so grateful I had such an incredible experience!
And take my American Heritage class! ...I just wrote an entire blog about it, so I'll save you from the repetition. :)
And finally take WRITING 150. I never expected to learn so much about effectively communicating! (Rhetoric...Ethos, Pathos, Logos! Words that were once foreign to me...are now concepts I hold dear!) This class was vitally important to me in the transition from High School to College level writing. Since I had the privilege of taking this class with upperclassmen I feel as though I've had to grow - maturity wise - to keep up with everyone! I also feel as though I've grown as a writer. (And I hope to continue that growth!) All these things were not necessarily things I expected from that one line course description.

Another thing I got from this class that was outside the summary...Is this awesome opportunity to blog! It has definitely been an adventure! It has helped me learn:

1. First and foremost, about myself! I feel as though I've gained knowledge about myself through finding topics that I find interesting enough to blog about! Blogging has helped me to rediscover my love for writing! I feel as though my writing voice has been found, and heard (at least by me!) through this process.
Blogging has helped me really think on different aspects of my life, and it has made me especially grateful for several things as I reflect and write on them!

2. Keep in mind that audience! Whoever you may be out there...I hope that you've found my blog at least semi - interesting(ish) If not, well...I apologize. I'll do better, I promise! :)

3. Media does communicate! Our Writing 150 course was based around the idea of New Media. Media is so huge in society today! Social networks...Online data bases...Blogs...There is so much information circulating the internet! Blogging itself has been a chance for met to add an individual touch to the masses and webs of information scattered across the internet.

Overall, I've loved this opportunity to delve into the realms of online journalism. It has grown to be less and less of a project, to be more and more of almost a leisure experience. I've fit the requirements for this class, the requirement to keep and maintain a blog over the semester...and yet I can't seem to stop thinking...I'm done? Really?

...Do I have to be? 

I'm Thankful for....American Heritage?

So! As all BYU students are aware of, we have to chose a freshman bundle....right?
And the choices are between - American Heritage, Writing 150, and a Supplement Bundle.
These are separated out for semesters for new freshman (according to my freshman mentor, they are separated because of the heavy workload required in both classes.)
And yet I, being me (who else?) decided that I was having none of that separation idea. So I took the American Heritage bundle...And then also took Writing 150...through the upperclassmen sign ups of course. (And how great that has been!)

Back to American Heritage though. How grateful I am that I decided to take both classes! (Although at one point, I did think of myself slightly crazy, and unwise. These times pass.)
It is fascinating learning about American History. As a Canadian, I have only learned the basics of it in the pass. I've heard Washington's name...I knew what the Boston Tea Party was...and I knew that there was a Civil War on Slavery...Basics like that.

















Yet, in this class, I was going up against people who have know this stuff all their lives! And it got me thinking. Do these people who live here recognize just how incredible their history is? By all means, I've found it fascinating!  I've loved learning about the ideological changes concerning freedom throughout the years. I've loved studying great men like Madison, Washington, Martin Luther King Jr. and so forth! I've enjoyed coming to know the Declaration of Independence, and the Constitution, vital and inspired documents that have had such an impact in the formation of America!
It is cool to see how different events that occurred so long ago have such a large effect on the world today! I've thought it to be a great opportunity to study it from a foreign perspective. (Being know as "Canada" in my lab was great, not gunna lie.) It has been especially great to look at these things from a BYU and an LDS perspective. I'm truly grateful for the opportunity (however hard) to learn these things.

All this and more have made me come to a conclusion:

Although I love Canada the most (naturally)....I now have a great respect for...and even feel fondness towards this great country of the United States of America.

Christmas is coming!!

Wow. I cannot express how very excited I am for Christmas this year.

Although Christmas is always the same holiday, I honestly believe that it changes due to the experience I'm going through that said year.
So therefore, this year is special, for a few reasons!

1. It's so suddenly here! In Canada, our thanksgiving comes around a month before American Thanksgiving...so we begin getting ready for Christmas about a month earlier than most! Although I love the Christmas spirit being present for so long, it is easily to lose anticipation for it since it is drawn out so long. Now that Christmas is JUST around the corner, I'm getting more and more excited about the songs, decorations, messages and so forth that are coming!

2. Family say what? I've never been away from home before in my life! That being said, it's going to be beautiful to go and spend time with my long lost family! It's probably what I'm looking forward to the most! I'm planning on spending as much time as I possibly can with my nieces and nephews. (They're so cute!)

3. Christmas as a college student. Ok. So this reason is probably the most selfish one. Haha :) BUT it's most likely that for Christmas I'll be getting some much needed things for college...For example...Food! Or pans! Or a cheese grater! Glorious.

4. Being here in Utah! Since I'm here, I've had the opportunity to hear carolers on campus, go to University musicals such as White Christmas (So good!) and go see the lights on temple square! They were beautiful. :) My particular favorite part was the nativity and candles on the reflection pool. 

There was also a great message last Sunday with the first Presidency concerning Christmas. All of their messages were based around keeping the true meaning of Christmas central to our celebration. I agree that it is important to keep in mind the true meaning and spirit of Christmas. (This isn't on the list....because I try to make this true of every Christmas season.) I know that when I've done that, my Christmas is filled with gratitude and love, truly making the holiday a better experience for me. I hope that I can keep that in mind this Christmas.


And I hope that I can always keep that in mind hereafter.

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Personal Narrative - Final Draft!


A Fountain of Youth
“Walking group will meet at the entrance in five minutes. That’s walking group, at the entrance in five minutes.” My voice, projected from the intercom on the wall beside the Activity Coordination office, echoed throughout the entirety of Clearview Lodge.
 I stood, tapping my fingers against my jeans and looked to the wall on my left. A gold trimmed mirror positioned above a burgundy couch lent me a glimpse of my reflection, and I brushed my thick brown curls out of my green eyes and adjusted my purple cardigan. Revealed past my figure was the image of a long hallway, populated by two residents slowly making their way back to their rooms from breakfast.
                Routine was imperative to the seniors at Clearview. Meal blocks were daily at eight, eleven and five.  Exercises were to be held every Monday and Wednesday at ten. The games and activities, that I was partly in charge of, respected the same rules. Baking group was scheduled for every Tuesday at nine. Bingo was to be indubitably held every Tuesday and Thursday at three. (And I was warned that should this would ever be forgotten, a rebellion would ensue.) On that same boat, walking group was every Monday and Wednesday at nine.
                “Hey good lookin’!” A high pitched, teasing voice called out. I turned grinning, internally preparing myself for the daily exchange with Art.
                He wobbled on his walking stick, approaching me. “Hey!” He called out, looking up at me with light grey eyes, and making sure he had my unwavering attention.  He motioned at me with his cane. “You got the money, honey, I got the time!”
                A classic Art pickup line. He was the type to bobble down a hallway, calling the same line boldly to all ladies - no matter what age or looks they were blessed with. A glint in his eyes hinted that if the age of his body matched the age of his personality, he would be a waggish boy of eighteen.
                “Sorry Art,” I laughed, “I’m afraid I don’t have the time today – and you’re going to have to show me that money first!”
                His pointed chin wrinkled as he pursed his lips, a merry sparkle still dancing in his eyes. “Hey!” he repeated in the same tone, questioning. “Do you have a boyfriend?”
                I shook my head and shrugged, shaking with laughter.
                He raised his small white eyebrows at me. “What’s a good lookin’ girl like you doing without a boyfriend?”
                I began, “Well Art I…” but he had turned his attention towards another of the staff passing by, approaching her and calling out, “Hey! You got the money, honey, I got the time!”
                I looked back, smiling and shaking my head as I approached the entrance of the lodge, the meeting place of the aged inhabitants of Clearview who wished to accompany me on a walk. I gazed expectantly around the room. It was a good turnout today.
                “Hey guys, are you ready for a walk today?” I asked cheerily, delighted. Four seniors waited patiently on a bench and in a wheelchair for me by the door. I was met with a friendly nod from Wanda, a look of determination from Susan, a ‘Yes ma’am’ from Frances and a smile from Dora. The cockatiels in the nearby cages squeaked, as if to protest our chance to enjoy nature’s elements without them.
“Alrighty then, let’s go!”  I positioned myself at the end of Dora’s wheelchair, heading the group, as they slowly pushed themselves up with the handles of their walkers. With Dora and me in the lead, we climbed through the two automatic doors and began our slow crusade outside.
                Dora’s wheelchair glided smoothly down the ramp. The metal on the framing her wheel glinted in the sunlight. A slight breeze ruffled the cuffs of her burgundy sweater. She closed her eyes, as if to enjoy a moment’s contentment, and then looked up at me with hazel eyes, her large, silvered curls a replica of the lazy clouds scattered above in the blue sky.
                “You know, this is the first time I’ve been able to come outside like this in a long, long time.” Her voice, low and soft, was thick with gratitude. “I would like to thank you for doing this for us.”
                “No problem, Dora,” I replied, caught unawares by her acknowledgment. Warmth filled me, and I smiled. I loved my job. Not only was it fun and full of rewarding opportunities to serve, but the relationships I built with those I spent my time with were irreplaceable.
                We made our leisurely, drawn out way down the sidewalk, the skate park to our right. It was not vacant at this time in the morning, but I knew that come afternoon it would be filled to the rim with the sounds and sight of eager kids and venturesome teens with rimmed hats on bikes, scooters and skateboards, jumping and dipping up and down the ramps on their wheels. To our left was Main Street, which was humming with the sounds of business and vehicles passing by.
                “Watch out!” I heard Wanda breathe jokingly as she gently feigned ramming her walker into the back of my shoe.
                “Oops,” I stated, “better get out of the way of the faster traffic!” I pushed Dora to the right side of the sidewalk as Wanda shuffled past me. Although she was a whopping 101 years of age, she didn’t look or act a day under eighty-five. Full of pranks and mischievous tricks, she was the one of the spunkiest seniors to populate Clearview’s halls. Soon she was ahead of me, her white curls bobbing atop her small frame.
                I turned my attention behind me, towards Frances and Susan. “How are you ladies doing?”
                Frances smiled her big smile at me, emphasizing the wrinkles by her eyes and cheeks. Her curled salt and pepper hair rippled in the breeze.  “It’s lovely hearing the songs of the birds.” The tallest of the bunch, she would be just under six feet tall if she was not bent down with age.
                We walked on, carefully minding our steps, and chatting casually. We slipped gratefully into the cool shadows of the park trees, for although it was morning the weather seemed to suggest the upcoming stifling heat of a startlingly warm summer’s day. The interior of the park was calm, the canopy of trees creating a shelter from the impending heat.  Park slides and equipment for child’s play lay at the far east end of the park. A small, concrete path wound on the inside of the park, lined with the occasional park bench and picnic table. Sprinklers irrigated the soft, green grass, covering the winding path inside with rippling puddles.
                “What do you say, Wanda?” I joked, “Should we take the path with the sprinklers? That would cool us down!” I grinned at her, and back at Frances and Susan, the former looking shocked while the latter seemed outright petrified by my statement.
                “Oh no, I think we better stay right on this path here,” recommended Frances, motioning to the path that bordered the road and the park.
Simultaneously Susan said, “Us older ladies aren’t like you young kids. We don’t like getting wet. We like to stay nice and warm. So we better not.” She straightened out the collar of her navy sweater. I consented, having previously come to that conclusion. Our company continued our sure way onward on the sidewalk edged by the line of park trees.
We were making our way to the edge of the block, midway through the park, when a pssshhhhh sound stopped us in our path. A flurry of activity surrounded us as dormant sprinklers sprang to life on the grass immediately to our right.
My mind raced. “Uh oh!” I proclaimed. The ladies looked at me with widening eyes.
“Come here, quick!” I called, motioning them towards me. We gathered in a clutter.
“We’re going to get wet!” Wanda proclaimed, accusing me jokingly. Luckily we had not gotten in the line of fire…yet.  I observed the scene. The sprinklers seemed to be making similar, round paths. As they gained pressure, they slowly circled, the one beside us spraying away from us towards the park. I waited to see if the sprinkler ahead of us would turn our way, and when it did not, I motioned towards my girls.
 “Hurry!” I called, pushing Dora ahead of me, as we all rolled our walkers and wheelchair with all the speed that we could muster. We stopped at a gap. Three more sprinklers lay ahead.
“So much for deciding not walking through the sprinklers today!” I laughed, lightening the mood as we checked to see if we could clear the next area without getting wet. Frances smiled, although there was a glimmer of worry in her eyes. Susan appeared shocked, and let out a nervous laugh.
 “Ok, ready, set, GO!” We raced past the next area. Two more sprinklers to go. I looked back, then forward, breathing heavily. We would have to time ourselves just right to avoid getting sprayed. As the sprinklers gained pressure, they sprayed in larger and larger projectiles within their sphere of space. The sprinkler ahead of us cleared the sidewalk, and we all hustled, the seniors white hair streaming as they gained all the speed they could safely muster.
We needed to pass one more sprinkler, and then we would be at the end of the block, to warmth, and safety.  Luckily we all had managed to avoid getting wet so far. The path ahead of us was blocked by raining droplets of spraying water curving our way. We waited patiently, the ladies catching their breath, when I looked back and -
“WATCH OUT!” I called out desperately, and dove to shield Dora with my body. The sprinkler to our backs had turned on us, and we were caught in the sprays crossfire!
“Run! Run! Run!” We called out, and hustled through, droplets pouring on us, soaking through our clothing and plastering our hair to our head. We put our heads down, and ran ahead, the ladies I was with moving faster than I believed was possible. With a cry of success, I cleared the sprinklers path, with the others filing towards me in quick succession.
Panting, we all looked at each other – and burst out laughing. I looked up, basking in the joyous sunlight.
“Well,” I declared, “There’s nothing like having a little adventure in the morning eh?”
“That’s one way to put it!” Susan admitted, smiling, brushing back her straight, damp hair.
“Oh dear!” laughed Dora, “that almost made me feel like a young girl again!”
I answered, shaking water droplets from my hair. “Well, in a way, we never grow up, right?”
The ladies chuckled their agreement.
Still amused, Susan announced, “You know what we’re missing on this walk? Music. I always walk with music playing.” She opened the seat of her walker, to reveal a CD player cradled in the case hidden within. She pressed a button, and classical music pervaded through the air. She casually snapped back on the lid, and led the way across the road, bobbing up and down, heading back towards Clearview. Still light with mirth, refreshed by our unexpected experience, we followed her.

Friday, December 2, 2011

PERFECTIONISM - Helps or Inhibits?

I don't know about you, but I'm well familiar with the feeling of staring at a blank page, hesitant to start writing a paper. I know the feeling of thinking, tapping my fingers against my keyboard, and refusing to type.













Perfectionism. Is it a good thing, or is it bad?
(and even now I'm plagued with the same problem mentioned above.)
Alright. Just write Rachel Bennett. Just write.
For example, these blog posts! I write it, preview it, edit it, preview it, and continue this process until I'm satisfied. THEN what usually happens is I re-read that post on my blog, and I find something else that I can add or edit! So I go back and change it! This usually happens on average a 1 - 6 times per blog. It amuses me. I guess it's just a perfectionist problem. (A very real example...I've already posted this blog post twice... or now three times, deciding I was finished, and then each time I re-read it and went back and changed it!)

It's funny, because I was mentioning this to my friend - how I'm slow to write papers because I want to get every.single.sentence.exactly.right. And he caused me to realize - I was being a perfectionist to the point that it was inhibiting and limiting me! Getting over my roadblock of halting, putting off writing, and thus leaving it until later and stressing...involves me getting over the notion that I had to be perfect! It involved me getting over the fact that no matter how much I edit, revise, add or expand, there is ALWAYS more that could be done to it! It involved me learning to just write and by doing so,  different thoughts and ideas will come! Looking back and improving an already written paper is a beautiful thing. The first step is to just write it!

By all means, being a perfectionist can be a good thing...to an extent. (and by all means I am NOT perfect...my procrastinating habits can attest to that!) It can help to push me into reaching a higher level in my work and learning than I already do. But if that perfectionism causes me to stress, or causes me to hesitate doing projects and papers because of a fear of failure or reaching the level I want it to, this is when it constrains me instead of helping me reach higher heights.

I'm just glad I have the chance to learn this now, so I can be better in the future.

I'm a NERD. And I enjoy it.

You know what? I think it's healthy to have some NERD interests....things to get excited about! And quote extensively! Or play thoroughly! Or be straight up expert on!
So yes. I am blogging about my nerd interests.

For example, we all grew up with something, movies, video games etc that may have changed our lives right? For me, this was Star Wars.


I love it! And don't start me quoting it, because I WILL know more than you wish to know! Star Wars Trivia? My forte. This is about the extent of my nerd interest on this one....My family made Bennett Star Wars. We made our own, homemade versions of the movies. They're hilarious...to me, and I consider them a vital part of my childhood. Love it.

Next? Well ZELDA of course! It's because of this franchise that I consider(ed) myself a gamer. I love them! I've played every Zelda game that I possibly could, including all the old ones. They helped me explore my imagination, and stretch my problem solving skills. My nerd extent? I've played Ocarina of Time without using half the items, and doing dungeons in odd orders, with three hearts. (I apologize for anyone that didn't understand that.) Also, I have two Zelda shirts...a poster...piano music...soundtracks...art and so forth.

There are SO many Nerd interests out there for me! But I'm just going to have to pick a select few.
Quick blurb on Robin Hood! (BBC) What an incredible series! I'm convinced they changed my life. Extent of my nerd interest? I basically watched all 3 seasons in four days! I definitely recommend them. (And Richard Armitage, my favorite actor, plays Guy of Gisborne!) My friend randomly called me, basically thanking me for mentioning them to him, because despite his incoming finals, he could not stop
                                                                                                 watching them until they were done!

And FINALLY Lord of the Rings. AND upcoming The Hobbit! The books are incredible. The movies are phenomenal. (I've watched all the extended versions...and all 10+ hours of special features on them.) And The Hobbit is going to be GREAT. Ask me any question and I'll know. Extent of my nerd interest? I follow Peter Jackson's facebook page, (It's the first thing that pops up when I type in a "P" in the facebook searchbar) and he does production blog video's which are amazing! (Not to mention my favorite actor...Richard Armitage...is playing the lead Dwarf.)


Anyway. Sorry for the ridiculous lengthiness of this blog.

It just got me extraordinarily excited about my nerd interests.

*Words*words*Words

Words...Words...Words. Are you listening?

This past semester, I had the wonderful opportunity to fulfill the service hours requirement for TMA 101 by being an actress in the Mask Club production of “Words*words*Words” directed by Kaelie Stout.  The show was a compilation of scenes from three of Shakespeare works, Much Ado about Nothing, Romeo and Juliet, and Othello, with an emphasis on the theme of miscommunication. 
This was an amazing opportunity for me. I felt as if I learned so much by being given a chance to be a part of this show.
I feel as though I have grown a great deal as an actress in these short months being part of this show, even more than I learned in the entirety of my senior year in high school. I learned more than I ever have before, how to better empathize with my character, actually allowing emotions to come to me genuinely instead of putting on a presentational mask of emotions. This helped me to connect to my character, Desdemona, in a much more personal way.
I also learned of the importance of having unity within the cast. I believe that it is vitally important in a show to trust and help those around you, on stage and off. Not only did I eventually gain this trust for my cast mates, director and stage manager/crew, but I was able to build up valuable friendships because of it.
One thing that I really feel I’ve learned….is that there is so much more that I can learn! There is so much more I can grow. By learning and listening to those with experience and insight, I not only feel as though there is much that I can improve on, but also that there is so much more I could perceive and understand when looking on theatre and drama.
In TMA 101, there has been an emphasis on bringing the gospel into theatre, which is something I have rarely experienced before, save for re-enactments done at Moroni’s Quest (an experience like Trek.) This is something that I was truly able to experience as being part of this show. Not only did we strive to bring the spirit into the rehearsal process, but I feel as though the theme of communication we strove to bring to the production was able to help me realize personally the importance of communication in my life, and also the importance of having the spirit in order to communicate.
Overall, “Words*words*Words” was an experience that personally meant a lot to me, for it was an opportunity to build trust and friendships, work hard, overcome fears, and learn so much.

I’m truly grateful for it.